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Dear Anaaira...

It's almost exactly 8 months today since the day you came home. And we had to wait almost exactly 9 months before we found you. That's two human gestation cycles to get the baby born in our hearts.

We're in the city of your birth again, and we signed the court order that's now made you ours forever and ever!

Your Naani says, and she's absolutely right (as usual), that we were all already yours, and today you've become ours too.

I love that the one sentence you speak clearly is where you very emphatically declare, "It's mine!" Once, you also said - "That's also mine!" And, my favourite, when I ask you whose Mama I am, you say "Maaa-INE!"

How do I tell you how much I love you, my baby? Today was such an anticlimactic day once the court order was signed. You've been exhausted and cranky all day, and we've all been the same, really! But, while you and Naani were sleeping, your Dada and I had another drink together, and all we talked about was our darling baby who's finally all ours! ❤

Now, as I lie in bed and type this, while you rotate round and round like the arms of a clock between Naani and I, kicking me on my nose in the process, what we did today is just sinking in. It's almost like I'd been holding my breath these last eight months, waiting to finish this paperwork. In my mind and heart, the paper isn't even required. You're mine, and I'm yours. We all are. But, to have this done and over with, feels so good and complete.

And that's what you've done by coming into our lives, my darling - you complete us, in ways you can't even imagine, ways I don't even have words to explain.

I love you,
Mama

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